*Friday*
July 3, 2009
The truth is
I’m afraid.
I fear of others perception.
I fear of others judgment.
I’m scared of being humiliated.
I’m scared of humiliating myself.
That’s why I lied.
That’s why I bluffed.
p.s. I thought I was cool but I just act like a fool
p.s.s. come to think of it, I think you’re bluffing me too all this long.
If U lie because you want to be humiliated for a stereotyped judgement from people?
Maariv,
Do people really do that?
When people are accustomed to your weakness they would only see your weaknesses. Therefore, no matter if you lie or tell the truth to make you look bad you dont have to be afraid of anyone attacking your weakness since your weakness is not something obscure to them that they need to be sensitive of to find just to shovel crap in your face. A person attacking a weakness that is already clearly stated could be over loving you or just plain want to hurt you. A good person would say something to get you back on track. Push you up. Not bring you down. Well, depending of who’s saying it….right?. Eventually, you can get some feel good out of a lie since you can find that you have strengths in your own terms living beyond comparison. You can capitalize on your strength when you dont feel bad about your weakness. Why feel bad over a person who attacks your weakness instead of your strength? oh, I just type words here I dont read this as a theory somewhere. Besides, if you feel the people who attacks your weakness are not up to your standards, still, they are attacking your weakness. Does it feel so bad anymore when your weakness becomes something that is a tiny cut that you can heal easily?
maariv,
I can’t help but agree. You have a very good and strong point there. Thanks for sharing your insights. I think it somehow has made me see things rather differently now.
Thanks so very much.
Would love to hear more from you.