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*Bull’s Eye*


No No No No, not this time!

Nothing personal.It’s just you’re always aiming your arrow at me as if I’m the only one who’s breathing on the planet .I sometimes do feel annoyed and suffocated to the extent that I fall in love rather easily at times. Stop shooting your arrows man!Because you see it’s not cool to go red-ish and pink-ish abruptly every time you furtively take a glimpse of your crush. Truth be told, I’m tired already.

But since I have noticed that I’m growing some sort of raging affection towards my current obsession, you are better left breathe-less coz surely this is not the perfect time for me Cupey, although a part of me is treasuring the moment, the feeling of falling head over heels over someone.

Wrong timing

Wrong person (tho I hope you did notice me)

Sorry, I have to shoot you down Cupey!

p.s. Cupey=Cupid

*Dedication 1

Selamat Hari Raya, Maaf Zahir Batin

Raya was good, I mean great and such extravagant. I enjoyed it to the fullest despite some episodes of ‘drama swasta’ or telenovela that occured, every thing else went smoothly. The two days open house was full and crowded with relatives. Ummi’s lontong and Nasi Dagang for the 1st day were salivating. My carbonara and spagetti for the 2nd was quite an achievement too. The five days break were spent beneficially with my cousins, bantering and bickering with each others.It was hell of a fun!.


“And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I’m never gonna be good enough for you
I can’t pretend that
I’m alright
And you can’t change me

‘Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I’m sorry
I can’t be perfect
Now it’s just too late and
We can’t go back
I’m sorry
I can’t be perfect”

*Simple Plan : Perfect

Saturday,3.30 am


I couldn’t get the coziest sleep for the past few days. Nightmares were haunting my nights, tailing me into the dreamland. Some were bizarre; some were hilariously odd while some were nostalgic. Ex-es, best friends and even crushes, they never stops making me nudging my mind searching for the answers. They left me contemplating, deep.

I don’t know where I am now

I don’t know what I’m doing now

I don’t know who am I now

I am neither floating on the thin air nor walking on the stony ground. I can’t cry when I want to, but tears rolled down my cheek hastily without my permission. I’m happy and am trying to be happy. I tried not to think of the past and the future. I try to do my best in the present. I try to stay calm from the bad perceptions people blatantly threw at me. I try to view things positively whenever people judge me. I’m trying and still.

Something is missing and I couldn’t find the answer to what it is. It’s inexplicable. I’m pursuing the trails of I myself don’t even have an inkling to what I’m searching for.

Maybe LOVE.

Or perhaps LIFE.

I got crushes everyday whenever somebody caught my attention. It’s absurd indeed.

Something is really missing.

I don’t know how long I’m going to endure this.