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*Days of our lives…*

Are gone baby,

They have perished into thin air where I can easily blow off from my palm.

Got a message from her yesterday, asking for my help. Like always, she will contact me if troubles fall upon her shoulder. Begging for my aid and I would comply docilely. So I helped her, and she said she would gimme a call later at night. Yeah whatever. She didn’t call me tho, in fact she appeared online in her YM. So I waited for her to give me a buzz. Couple of minutes later, she buzz-ed me. Gave her the information she needed. She retrieved it and she muted. So I saw my chance there, so I typed :

Well, just so u know, when someone has helped you, usually he will be thanked for the assistant.

Serve you right! She retaliated by saying I’m going to thank you later dear, coz I still wanna have some conversations with you, you know checking you up yada yada yada. I was cold and bitter to the fact of her oblivious state and looking cute and innocent and such. She gave me this ‘kissing’ emoticon. Ah another chance :

Thanks but no thanks, you can keep it to your current boyfriend, I’m definitely sure he’ll like it.

Serve you twice! Oh she didn’t really get the message yet by saying Oh ok sombong sekarang ngan I, tak per2. Er excuse me, you cheated behind my back and to make matter worst, you stabbed me in the back also. I know it has been eons since that tragedy but the fact that you are still trying to use me kinda pissed me off. Enough is enough. You don’t know how hard for me to let you go, the excruciating pain I had to endure,how much tears I shed for you and your stupid boyfriend or should I say your victim, Fucking heart-breaker. What do you expect sayang? I’m not that daft acad anymore ok.

And we talked, she bragged about her current boyfriend, cute and good looking, fair and such. Duh Like I care, as she was typing, I went outside to the balcony coz I was so tensed and irritated. Leaving her talking to herself. I had come to realize one thing, my heart was beating in a normal rate. Yes! it did. No more wild beats whenever she appeared online like I used to even tho she ditched me. I still have the feeling of falling head over heels for her everytime my mind thinks of her and our memories. But today, my heart reacted normally. And I feel good and rejuvenated.

So I went in and said :

Look babe, we’re over for like 2 years and in case you’ve forgotten, you dumped me. I know we had agree to be friend and such but now I’m too busy to listen to your craps about your new boyfriend. Tak kisah la if die handsome ke, kaya ke, apa ke coz I know ur not going to end up marrying him coz I know you very well ok. So if you don’t mind, I have some dates to catch, and I would rather plunge my head on studying than listening to any of your gibberish talks. Besides, I have other IMPORTANT persons to impress.

I hate you!

She said.And she went offline.

Usually if she uttered the word ‘hate‘, I’ll go berserk and I would try my best to reach her and coax her. If I wouldn’t able to get in touch with her, I can’t shut my eyes, seriously because she meant the world to me (mind the past tense)

Thank you so much. I have long apologized you for your antics. I felt nothing and I liked it so much. Weird hah?

p.s. I can be a bitch too you know, or perhaps even bitch-ier.


She’s such a flirt
I am the lonely heart
Give it a chance
For our love to start
You’ll never see
If you
Don’t give me a shot
To show you what I got
It’s too late
To pretend
You know me better
Than I know myself
Don’t take my heart
And put it on a shelf
Always someone else
The next guy who will
Make your cold heart melt
I’m gonna give my love
To someone else

I held your hand
It felt like a movie
I made some plans
But you were
Already moving on
Now I’m stuck
Under a rainy cloud
But you
Don’t seem to care
But it’s alright

I’m tired
Of wasting all my time
My heart
Is hanging on the line
Is it me, girl
Or someone else?
Don’t leave it
On the shelf

It’s too late
To pretend
You know me better
Than I know myself
Don’t take my heart
And put it on a shelf
Baby, see?
How much it hurts
To be alone like me?
So go ahead
And put your heart
On a shelf

La, la, la, la, la
La, la, la, la, la

Always someone else
The next guy
Who will make
Your cold heart melt
I’m gonna give my love
To someone else

The Jonas Brothers, Shelf

p/s : Life pretty sucks at the moment~

*He’s my friend


Thanks Joe for the warm visit.You have carved a smile upon my face,I really needed that.We talked and we laughed.I taught you how to eat ‘roti canai’.I showed you my house and my room.We sang and I really liked the song.I had a very nice day, we should do it more often, together with the rest of the gang..Ha-ha I call them gang. Oh wait, not so often, they’ll call me a maniac, but who cares?

*I have imaginary friends and Joe is one of them*

~Fret not because this is just another bizarre thing about me, this is just me~

P/S : I wish you were real 😦

[Where would I be if I couldn’t dream?]

Anyone who has imaginary friends..care to share?

*Hold On

~Selamat sejahtera semua~


it’s never wrong to dream

~Keep dreaming~

So today’s theme song is : Hold on by The Jonas Brothers.

*Tell Me


Don’t pretend
Don’t lie

Tell me I’m such a nuisance
Tell me I’m such a menace


Am I your lover
Am I your admirer

Tell me

Don’t plant me your seed of hope
Don’t water it with your sweet talks
Don’t shine it with your bright promises

I’m a human
Vulnerable to such feeling
Of waiting
Of hoping
Of hurting


This is for my friend, Eim who is struggling very hard in his life, love,study and everything.


To eim

Be strong as your name is and because I know you are. Even if you are on the verge of breaking down, I will always have faith on you. I feel you because I myself am experiencing this, the different is I’m trying to adapt to it. You too eim, you should. Life isn’t what it seems. Sometimes we will not get what we want and sometimes we do. I don’t know how to say this coz you know me, I’m expert at listening and snickering but not giving advices. But be sure that there will always be a blessing in disguise for you stranded in that course that you hate. Don’t give up dear, don’t ever succumb to that option. I’ll be praying for our success.I’ll always be here for you to turn to.

Your sincerely,


P/S: Photos are not attached because ‘tuan punya nama’ doesn’t permit it.


The feeling I could not resists,

It’s a miracle how you could embrace and indulge with this enchantment,

With just a simple and plain ‘HI’,

That will leave me gasping to breathe,

Depicted an ode for me,

Inspired by you,

For the moment I long to be true,

To taste what it has offered me,