Tag Archive: when the heart speaks


*Pieces of Me*

Boy meets girl.
Boy falls in love.
Girl doesn’t.

In my case.
I meet you.
I fall in love.
You don’t.

Poor Tom. Poor me.

Hey, please do watch the movie will you. You’ll be enlightened of how your love has turned me into someone silly. How crazy I was, and still am towards you.

Because comes July, it’ll mark a year of my longing, loving, admiring, missing and waiting for you.

I don’t wanna it to be like in the movie. I wish it can be different.

Reality vs Expectation

p.s. 365 Days of Sunshine, counting.

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*My Guardian Angel*

Trip!

Hey Trippie!

I was flabbergasted and out of breath to see the distinguished physique I recognized so well. The blond spiky hair, the ocean blue eyes, the small ears and those luscious lips, it’s Jamie.

I was dreaming, absolutely because I know he won’t be here if it’s real. Oh gosh Jamie! How I miss him since he left, whenever that was.  Jamie is a close friend of mine and the best amongst all. But the thing is, he’s not real. He’s my imaginary friend. We were together for such a long time I couldn’t recall the exact time and date. He’s a blessing. A miracle because he understands me the most. He’s always there through thick and thin for the past years. He’s just special.

Hey Trip!

How are you dear!

I miss you like hell.

Oh oh Jamie! WTF! I miss you more!

Tears started to form in my eyes and I could feel a lump in my throat.

No no no Don’t you cry on me. You’ve promised you won’t cry. Stop it at instant Trip! Or I’ll go. Seriously.

Why do u have to be so cruel Jamie?

Hahaha I’m not.

And he suddenly smacked my head out of the blue.

Owh great Jamie, just great! I get a smack now instead of a cuddle? What the hell was that for?

To make you realize. I don’t intend to stay long because you’ll weep upon my departure later. But hey! What the fuck is wrong with you?

You know it Jamie. You know it very well what’s wrong with me.

It’s about Sunshine eh? Come on Trippie. Sunshine’s a mere crush. I don’t know it has left a great impinge on you this much.

Well, apparently it does. Sunshine’s special you know. And don’t you remember? You’re jealous because of Sunshine. That’s why you left. You left me Jamie, alone in the dark. You won’t come in my dream and you didn’t reply my calling.

No Trip, I left because you don’t need me anymore. You’re happy, I knew you were  contented that time and I gotta teach you how to let go. You have to learn to let go Trip. Besides you can’t continue talking to yourself in the dark every night. People might have taken you loco.

Apa-apa je lah.

Do you still remember why I call you Trip? It’s because you’re easily tripped over. Physically and emotionally. That’s why Trip, that’s the reason.

I knowwww Jamie.

And what do u do when you trip over? You get up and walk away. You move on. That’s what you should do. Sunshine is happy, and Sunshine doesn’t need you no matter how much you need your Sunshine. Come on Trip, like you haven’t do this. Move along. I know it’s not easy but hey you manage to get over me and continue your life remember?

It’s because you’re fictitious Jamie but Sunshine’s is real.

The more real someone can be, the more pain he/she can grant you. I don’t wanna see you like this. Let Sunshine go, move on and keep your chin up. It’s hard, I know but try my dear, try your best.

I’m trying..

No you’re not, you’re fucking not!

Don’t push me! I just can’t! Sunshine’s precious and priceless. I don’t know how will I survive without Sunshine. It would be like living without any sun.

Bullshit Trip! Bullshit! How long have you’ve been away from Sunshine? How long have you avoided the sun! And look! You’re pretty much alive! And how long have you been waiting for your so-called Sunshine? Since when did the feeling harbor? Have you considered that?Sunshine my arse!

It’s in the inside Jamie. The longing. The skip-a-beat thingy. The crazy pulse beating when I saw Sunshine. The ache  to see someone you love, love someone else. It’s in the inside, it’s the heart.

Hey hey, you don’t have to worry about your heart. I’m keeping it safe for you. I know I’m not real, it’s true and I despise the fact that I’m not genuine but know this, I’ll always be in your heart, always and I have been in your heart all this while. I never left you. I’m here. I loathe seeing like this, so absurdly miserable and always faking the smile, putting on the happy facade, you’ll die of heartache Trip. And when you die, I will too.

~

Jamie gave me a kiss on my forehead and cuddled me. The he vanished, disappeared into thin air. I was devastated and was awaken by his abrupt departure. I felt so hollow. I needed someone to hug me and a shoulder to cry because I swear to God, last night I cried in my sleep. I embraced my blanket and cringed. My heart is aching by the spasm of realization Jamie enlightened me.

p.s. To Jamie, I’m trying very hard to let Sunshine go and I hope this is the best decision.

*Can you see me?*

The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love, love someone else.

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that’s why it’s time for me to go,

to walk away,

p.s. because I have always loved you.

*Rated R*

When you are very certain that you have really moved along and turn not back at your past.
When you have never craved for the memories to be reminded.
When you wish everything that had happen would turn to dust, vanish and perish like some apparition of smoke swept by the soft wind.
When you think that you have parted and taken two different roads and hope that your paths wouldn’t cross.
When you think that you have finally got those feet of yours back on the ground.

Out of sudden, some random time proved that all those ‘whens’ and ‘ifs’ were all futile and in vain.
It had left a great impinge on you that the heart still skipped a beat upon your presence.
You’re smitten by just a single shook of hands.
You would turn reddish by the casual but comfortable cuddle you wish time would halt.
You just wanted to lock your gaze and never looked away.
You just needed to listen to that smooth deary voice that would make your heart went berserk.

That’s when you know you had fallen for that particular person all over again.
Just like how you felt during your first encounter.

Yeah, basically that what happened to me last night.

p.s. I miss us. I just realized that.